30's - the fear, the animosity and the truth

On March 3rd I awoke to carry on with my standard chores and after a few minutes, I had an epiphany. Today is my 30th birthday, my step towards a more mature lifestyle, my passing towards a place where being completely wasted and drunk(my existence) is a taboo and it's the defying moment in a women's life where they feel that there time has come and they are wrinkly and old. And yet how is that I feel exactly the same as the day before this fearful monumental turning of age. I mean hell.. I still hate getting up from my warm cosy bed and I still find it extremely annoying as I can't linger on my sweet bed. So at that single moment , I ask myself "What is different now?"

And from the past 2 weeks, I celebrated this turning point in Shanghai and HK surrounded by family and friends. Especially when I had my party in Hong Kong, I saw so many old faces (mind you I have been gone for 4 years) and I realized that all of you guys, my friends have made me the person I am now today. And I have accumulated so much from these 30 years, I am truly blessed. From friends that I made 17 years ago, the new friends in my life to the very significant other that is a huge part of my life today, you have MADE me for better or worse. So kudos to all of you, if you love bobopang. And I look forward to more birthdays with all of you.